STRUGGLING WITH STRUGGLE

I struggle with struggling! Ok let me try to explain this better.

My life feels like it is a boat out at sea. The waves of life crash at me and I am tossed around in the chaos. Other times life is still and I float effortlessly along. During both times though, I am aware that my boat is attached to a long, long rope that contains an anchor on the end. This anchor won't let me get lost at sea. It doesn't stop the waves from crashing and me thrashing about  but it won't let the waves take me from where I should be as long as I keep the rope attached. The anchor is God, the rope is my relationship with Him that I maintain through prayer, the Bible and worship.

So here is my struggle. Life crashes down on me with crazy schedules, unreal ecpectations, and financial strains. I know I am connected to my anchor. I pray many times a day. But there are days, I am overwhelmed with my burdens and underwhelmed by God's presence. There I said it. I struggle with my struggles! The bad part is I know this is a choice I make I know that if I connect with God with more than just my prayers, I can feel overwhelmed by His presence and underwhelmed by my burdens but there are days I choose not to do this.
Paul struggled like this. In Romans 7:15 he says " I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate, I do." He struggled with struggles too." There are many days it's not my struggles that get me down. It is actually my guilt for allowing those struggles to interfere with my ability to be a good witness for Christ that gets me down the most.

This week, I am trying to change this behavior by focusing more on God's word, worshipping more, prayer journaling more and hopefully ministering to someone reading this that has the same struggle. I would love to pray for anyone struggling with struggle like I am. So please comment or send me a message privately and I will pray for you!