One More. . .

I am a teacher at a high school and only saw 3 parents in 4 hours at  Parent Teacher Conferences.  During that time, my mind kept going back to a list of “One more’s”.  Bitter about how things are turning out right now, my list of “One more’s” kept growing.   When I got in the car to go home with my husband, I said,

 “I know God is trying to speak to me through this.

 All I thought about all day was what if we had “one more” year. 

What if I could stay and teach one more year.

 What if they had given you one more year to coach this team since we both know they are right there to take that next step.

 If we had just one more year your mom would be done with chemo and her stem cell transplant and would be in better health to move.

Everything we are going through points to us just needing one more year!

I know God is trying to tell me something through this but I don’t know quite what it is yet. ”

Now driving down the road, after listening to my “One More” list, he joined in with His list,

“You are right everything does point to One More.

If we’d have had one more point our last home game, we’d have made the play-offs.

If we’d have had one more win, they wouldn’t have fired me.

If we’d have had one more year, we’d have turned this team around.

If they’d have let you stay and teach one more year, I’d be able to commute to a new job.

If we had one more year, my mom would be better health wise.”

Then there was a pause.  Then my husband said,

“He’s trying to say it’s not ONE MORE thing we need but more of the ONE that we need.”

It hit us like a ton of bricks. 

Our circumstances have had us asking administration why not give us One More year but our God says you don’t need One more year here, you need more of the One.  We need more trust in him that

1.       This is exactly where God placed us and now He is about to reassign us.  It wasn’t a mistake to come but it was” Histake” on what needed to happen here not ours that we were here to fulfill.  We didn’t fail at His purpose.

2.       He has seen our struggles here and seen who we are up against and he wants to set us free from it and put us in a place where we can accomplish what He has put in our hearts to do.   Our disappointments are "Hisappointments"to reassign us to where we go next in life. 

3.       He will heal us and has the details all worked out.  He is just waiting for our hearts to heal to reveal the next step.

4.       He is using this time where we find ourselves, uncomfortable, unappreciated, jobless for next year, no hope for our future, broken, humbled, inadequate to care for his mom through a move,  to show His Greatness by taking care of us through it all.

5.       He is not showing us what we lack in our faithfulness or using this as punishment but showing us that our faithfulness is taking us to a new level  and when we come through this time in our life that not only will we not doubt His faithfulness to us but others will also know His faithfulness through what He has done for us!  We need more of the One to get to this level! 

We just need more of the ONE to get through it all!  Thank you God for revealing these truths to us!  I know we have difficult days ahead but ultimately know you will deliver us as we seek more of the ONE!