What is it God? What is it?

I felt led to share this poem. Maybe some of you are going through a time where you want so much to understand what is going on but don't really get it. Yet through the scary times you have a peace about you like you've never felt.  This poem just spilled on to the keyboard tonight.  I hope it helps someone.

What Is It God? What Is It?

by Kim Stone

Something is churning inside of my heart

Something like a huge storm is ripping me apart

The dreams, the themes, what does it all mean?
Why are my emotions so hidden so unseen?

Why does it take these nightly terrors
To show me what’s behind the barriers

Lord, why can’t you show me in words what you want me to know
Why does it have to come in fear in the night with pain and so much woe?

What is it God that you want me to see?
What is it God that you are calling me to be?

I know the themes are about rapid and permanent change
But the truth behind the dreams feel so far out of my range.

What is it God that has me scared as a I sleep?
But then when I awake I find a peace that is so deep?

What is it God that you are showing me?
What is it God that you are wanting me to be?

You say those that ask shall receive.
What is it God that you want me to believe?

What is it God that you are preparing me for?
What is it God that is rocking me to my core?

What is it God,
what is it?