Its kind of like I signed up for a "God University" course in “Anger Management” I had been praying about needing help in this area and God saw in my heart I was sincere. And the first day of the class was the hardest assignment, dealing with my mother-in-law on a 24/7 basis when she moved in with us almost a year ago when she was suffering from cancer. To say we didn't get along is an understatement but I knew God called us to help her. I stepped out in obedience first and it took a lot longer for my heart to get into the act. Each time she did something to annoy me or drive me crazy was an assignment from God and each time back then I would fly off the handle and fail my assignment. Right when I wanted to drop out of the class, things were getting even harder and finally I had to ask God, my instructor on what to do, how to help me, and it was like He opened my eyes to see and understand things differently and although I had to do the work, He was giving me all the answers . Sometimes I refused to do the right thing but he didn’t flunk me. He would give me a make up exam by putting me in a similar situation again to prove that I could do the right thing!
After many months, I have not passed "Anger Management" and I think it will be a lifelong learning class but I have passed the chapter on getting along with my mother-in-law (most of the time). That was a God-sized task and he saw me through it. Since then I can see that I am less stressed at home and at work. Little things do not bother me like they once did and my temper has tamed down some. I still have a long ways to go but I have learned to stop and pray about things especially the words that I use. Sometimes it's like I feel God's hand over my mouth preventing me from saying something that I might regret. My next step will be for my mind not to think of the things I shouldn't say but to be filled with all the right things to say so that I am not so quiet these days!
For anyone out there who has problems with anger, talk to the Instructor, He is patient, will teach you more than you even want to know and is very good about make-up exams and pop quizes! Trust me I know!
After many months, I have not passed "Anger Management" and I think it will be a lifelong learning class but I have passed the chapter on getting along with my mother-in-law (most of the time). That was a God-sized task and he saw me through it. Since then I can see that I am less stressed at home and at work. Little things do not bother me like they once did and my temper has tamed down some. I still have a long ways to go but I have learned to stop and pray about things especially the words that I use. Sometimes it's like I feel God's hand over my mouth preventing me from saying something that I might regret. My next step will be for my mind not to think of the things I shouldn't say but to be filled with all the right things to say so that I am not so quiet these days!
For anyone out there who has problems with anger, talk to the Instructor, He is patient, will teach you more than you even want to know and is very good about make-up exams and pop quizes! Trust me I know!
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